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The North Wind and The Leaf: The Real Story April 30, 2008

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One girl is walking down the street with the sad face. She can’t remember when the last time she was content. The things that she can remember were only the things that hurt her. All the happy memories seem like passing her by. Not even care to stop by. Bit by bit, she is trying to recapture all the happy memories. Without any guilt and shame, all the memories are flashing in her head.

She remembers how she was loved. She remembers how she was adored. She remembers him who devotes his time for her. All the fancy things that those people gave. The fondness of their touch. And at last, she remembers the one who she dear for is standing tall beside her. She finds it irresistible to keep all of those memories in her head.

She kept strolling in that road until she found a big board. The board says this:

Sometimes, in our relentless efforts to find the person we Love we fail to recognize & appreciate the people who Love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things & simply because we allow ourselves to been slaved by our own selfish emotions.

She finds that board is peculiar. As if that board can read her relentless guilt in her mind. She remembers how she failed to keep her emotion: The selfish adoration which leads to the withdrawal. She keeps on walking until she finds another board:

Go for the man of deeds & not for the man of words for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you Love but with the man who Loves you more. The best Lovers are those who are capable of loving from a distance, far enough to allow the
other person to grow, but never too far to feel the
Love deep within your being.

Another peculiar box, she said on her minds. Do I love that man? Does he love me too? Am I keeping him from his growth? The questions were still popping in her mind. She kept on walking.

To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his/her own happiness without expecting him/her to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself free from all bitterness, hatred, & anger that keep in your heart. Do not let the bitterness rare away your strength & weaken your faith & never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let you grow with wisdom in bearing it.

I didn’t let it go! I’m still bitter from all those things that he had done to me!. The angry voices were shouting out loud in her mind, making her uncomfortable. She didn’t even know why she ended up at this place and seeing all of those boards.

You may found peace in just loving someone from a distance not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past but real peace & happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today. There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice & beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person.

She stares on this board this time. Using her time to read this over and over again. She is trying to understand fully what this board wants to say. She smiles as all the thoughts, senses and her feelings come together as a whole. She knows that she needs to accept the reality. She eagerly walks down the small path to find another board:

This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives & eventually consumes our thoughts & actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get noticed & be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded & we end up being sorry for ourselves. You don’t have to forget someone you Love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself.

Not far from that board she finds another board:

Believe me; you would be better off giving that dedication & Love to someone more deserving. Don’t let your heart run your life, be sensible & let your mind speak for itself. Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose Love that doesn’t mean that you failed in Love.

Cry, if you have to, but make it sure that the tears wash away the hurt & the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday & Love will find its way back to you & when it does, pray that it may be the Love that will stay & last a lifetime.

She sat down under the last board. She’s back on point zero where all the memories are flashing in her head. This time is different though. She knows that she will get that love. She believes in it. Suddenly she remembers something. She remembers someone that has been waiting for her a long time. She remembers all the unconditional love that he always gave her. She knows that she should be with him.

As she runs back to her house, the rain starts falling on the street. She tried her best to get back to her house as soon as possible. She can’t wait to tell him that he loves her.

When she reaches the door, one man is already standing there waiting for her. She couldn’t believe her eyes. Slowly the man walking downs the street with an umbrella, and he said:

“If a man loves you, nothing can keep him away”

She smiles, she knows that she find the right one
by: me.

I hope you enjoy all the saga. Combining all the stories here and there from everyone around me. Thanks to you whose part of these stories.


HUH??? April 29, 2008

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Shocked !!

Kenapa baru bilang sekarang? Kenapa ga dari dulu? Why??

But anyway, I think I already choose what I want in life. Just confused for the things that had happened in the past. I know I shouldn’t do this? Cuz it will make me fully awake to all my bad memories and membuat g jadi berandai – andai. Mungkin ini menjadi suatu pelajaran yang terbesar buat g. Waiting is not bad at all.

Seringkali g ga sabar banget for things to happen. Waiting seems to be endless and not exciting at that moment. Jadi instead of waiting, I made things happened! Off course it’s my own will, but at that time everything look very bright and no boundaries.  At the end, things went bad and I have to buried all of them.

Suatu pelajaran berharga yang orang lain ga pernah bisa ajarkan ke g. Probably it all changes the way I think towards this thing. I will wait. No matter how long it is, how boring it is, how dark the road is, I will wait!

I believe something good will come out of it.

Saturday Night April 28, 2008

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Have you ever been shocked when suddenly a big fire was across your house? Well.. in that case, I am. Saturday night, I strolled in the 10 fwy crossing the downtown LA. I saw the fire blazing from the terrain around Alhambra area in the darkness of that night. Suddenly, i felt a warm feeling inside my heart and i just noticed that it was closed by my house.

Minutes passed by and I drove carefully. The closer i drove to my house i can see the fire and then I saw that the fire were in the back of my house and it was huge. It occupied almost all the terrain around pasadena / arcadia area. I was shocked ! I called my roommate, in awe of the fire, for her to get back to the house as soon as possible.

After i reached my house, i just realized that the fire is only about 5 miles away from my apartment. It’s kind of impossible for the fire to reach down the valley where I live. I smiled, relieved from all the panic attack. At least, is not my house.

The next morning I saw the news that there’s a brush fire in the sierra madre. No one hurt or lost their house. Everything is okay.

ps: my neighbor dan my roomate, sorry menggangu acara loe dengan suara panik gw in youur voicemail / hp hehehe 🙂

Love will find a way April 23, 2008

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Remember when we used to talk
Sharing our hearts went thru the night
Your voice whisperings in my ear
We take it slow
Like the love talkin’

When I used to seem holding back
The way you feel about my heart
I just can feel your emptiness
Baby is cool and you will know

Love can be found
Love maybe hurt
Love can be everything you want me to

Open your eyes to see it through
And just give it a try
Love will find you

I want to be your true love
I can fit into your loneliness
I want to be everything you want me to
Give me your sign
And you will know

Love can be found
Love maybe hurt
Love can be everything you want me to

Open your eyes to see it through
And just give it a try
Love will find you

You will know and give it a try
Love not bad and it always can be
So keep faith on me
And I will share you my world
Never thought I will lean you our hope
You win my all from now
Love will keep me by your side
by: Anugerah Aditya

Pocketful of Sunshine April 21, 2008

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Can’t really close my eyes in the front of the ocean.
Where the horizon stretches as far as the eyes can see.
The shades from the sunset are glowing on the water

Then it slowly resides in the horizon.
Feels the breeze that strike my face
I’m relieved…
I’m amazed…
How beautiful is His work upon this earth

If only everyone can see all the beauty that He creates on earth,
why they pretend that He’s not there?

If people can hear the rush of the ocean,
why they can’t hear His voice calling on them everyday?

If people can feel the breeze of the winds on their face,
why they can’t feel the grace that He gives on their life?

When you try so hard to find it, you will not find it
Put it under His feet and let Him do the rest

When you surrender everything,
The happiness will be right inside of you.

Don’t try so hard to find it anywhere else
You can’t see it through your own eyes.
But you can feel it through your heart.

Let He guides you everywhere you go
Happiness is in Him alone
He will never forget you nor disappoints you.
So, why we have to be worry about anything else?